Two days ago I hurt my back
during one of my weekly runs. It really
hurt! It hurt so much that I had to take
a day of rest and slow down. This was a
good thing. The funny thing is that I
had been struggling and straining and pushing myself to do more because of what
I was taking in from the outside. What
does this mean? I had been taking on
other people’s perceptions of me and had been trying to live up to all of that
and more. I really felt the struggle and
even had more of a difficult time getting up and following through with my
workouts. Yes, it could be because I am
beginning to train harder for the upcoming marathon in the fall. This would be the old way of thinking our way
through problems. We tend to do this you
know. We think it is because of
something that we did; maybe I pulled weeds and was bent over for too long or
maybe I moved in a certain way and it strained my back or maybe I just did not
stretch enough. No, I am here to tell
you that in order to get to the roots of issues and physical ailments we have
we need to begin to think of the emotions behind what is truly going on. Every pain has a story and every pain has an
emotion behind it. Every pain has a
reason… and it ain’t because we are getting too old, or my knees are worn out,
or because of the any number of reasons there are out there to believe it is
because of something else. It is time
for us all to begin to own our energy.
Own what is going on within you and all around you. Ask yourself, “How did I create this story and
why did I create this? What is serving me out of this? Why am I doing this?” There is always a reason, there is always
something that we learned or was passed down from generation to generation that
we sub consciously believe that causes a pain or calls our attention to
something that doesn’t feel so good within ourselves. We have the power to create all of anything
and everything. Once we get to the roots
of what is causing the limitations that had such a hold on us in the first
place…once we understand through awareness what we keep doing to ourselves over
and over again…then we can set ourselves free.
All we have to do is ask for help, use our awareness to get to the root,
with gratitude release and let go and humbly say thank you. This is key.
If all of us did this, if all of us just owned up to our perceptions and
realized that which doesn’t feel good is just a calling to know who you really
are…which is perfect in every way… except we don’t completely believe
this…there would be no issues. Then,
once we realize all of this there would be no reasons to ever resist or
confront or argue or gander with another being.
All of life would be diffused and there would only be the piece de
resistance that I speak of over and over again.
But then our ego minds may get board and question over and over again
and create more instances to question and then our hearts would take over again
and again and show our minds that this really was never our truth in the first
place. This is really, truly how I
believe life has been created. I believe
we all have opportunities to live our truth every day. Through awareness we either choose to do this
or we choose not to. It is completely up
to us. We can do the same things over
and over again and expect things to be different or we can be the difference.
Now…back to why my back
hurt…
What really happened went
like this for me… I was straining in my workouts because my life felt
strained. I felt this enormous weight
that I had to produce, I had to succeed in my life and I was rushing to get
there. What I didn’t realize is that I
had a hidden belief that I would not be able to succeed. I honestly believed that I have to struggle
to make it in this world. I honestly
believed that we don’t succeed. I
believed that I had incredible wisdom to share but no one would be there to
hear me. Or if they did it would be a
strain for me to reach them. My lower
back felt like a slow aching pain that would not go away. Every time I would extend my back, go into
extension, it would ache more. Aha! I thought, I am afraid to extend myself into
the world…to reach more and more people because they will not hear me and they
will reject me. I am afraid to extend
myself and go forward and be seen and heard.
I am afraid to extend and be more of me, who really isn’t me at all…it
is an extension of me that is all connected to the unlimited supply of Source
in the first place. I was afraid to go
fully where I have not gone before. I
was afraid to release the dull achy strain that has been the base of my
subconscious thoughts my entire life and probably even more times before this lifetime. This was a huge pattern I had literally run
into. So what did I do? I worked with this for a day. I slowed down and I worked with my thoughts
and asked for help. I asked for
forgiveness around all of this. I asked
for help in any and every which way over and over again. I did what I do in
sessions with clients. I brought
awareness to the situation, asked for forgiveness, and released it to the
universe. With gratitude, I thanked my higher
self for bringing this to my awareness and showing me what was truly holding me
back all along, myself, and I let it go.
I worked with this for a day and I asked for more help when I went to
bed that night. When I awoke the next
morning, my back still ached a bit… so what did I do… I put one foot in front
of the other and ran it out. I went for
a 5-mile run and decided that as the issues came up I would just allow them to
go. And that is what they did. My back worked itself out because I completely
believe that something more powerful than me has got my back all along. Now I can see that I am fully supported at
all times and the world supports me. There are no more subconscious beliefs that
keep creeping up behind me…I can give it up and allow the opportunities to continue
to come to me instead of straining to make things happen and make myself go
forward. I accept and I receive.
Are you getting the feel for
how it works? There are many layers to
this and many ways to look at this and many reasons why… but it all starts with
what is going on from within…what we feel.
The Energy never dies, it is only
transformed. The Emotions behind the Energy that was keeping me from Exercising my highest self was caught
up in hidden fears that I was still holding onto. Once I put my attention on it and allowed it
to speak it could be released and transformed into new Energy that directed my Emotions
to a place of love and trust that brought in new patterns and experiences that
I could now Exercise.
Go forth my friends, extend
yourselves, and set your expectations high!
The universe has our backs…
It is that simple, it is
simply that simple.
Namaste my friends.
All my love and more,
Jennifer
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