Listen to the Darkness & Feed Your Light Body

Today, I sit in front of a blazing light that projects warmth and goodness through my entire body.  It is called, "Light Therapy".  Meant to imitate the sun's rays that we get unlimited amounts of in the summer time.  It is one of the steps I have taken to nourish my Spirit's need for light in the winter time.  I have a natural tendency to gravitate towards light.  This is why I love the summer time and feel ultimately full of life during this time of year.  Going into the fall, I begin to feel the effects of the coming cold weather and shorter days but they do not predominate in my life.   As the days become shorter and shorter and the darkness becomes more and more apparent I begin to shift into a slower mode that craves more sleep, less activity, and more comfort foods.  I slip into a darkness that is difficult to see when you are in it and even more difficult to transcend when the darkness that I feel seems so real.   So, when I wrote the last blog...."Winter Sucks", I had come to the point of  'having enough' of the winter blues and ready to turn my temper tantrums into productive action.  You see, it is ego that just wants to feel 'sorry' for itself for a little while and then it is time to act.  I allowed my sorrow filled moments to 'be', allowed myself to go into that space of darkness and feel.  Knowing that as I embrace the darkness I will emerge with lightness.  So,  I took action.  I braved the cold that day.  I was determined to evolve.  I put on my boots and heavy winter coat that covers me from head to toe.  I used my energy in a positive direction to make change.  I was ready.  Fear was my friend...finally.  Together we embraced the winter and found ways in the coming days and weeks ahead to make beneficial changes.  These changes came to me naturally because of my faith and belief that they would.  I payed more attention to my diet with the knowing that if I am a being who craves light I must bring in more light filled nourishing foods and water into my body that will satisfy my cravings for light.  I put down the extra carbs and dencer foods and picked up more of the fresh raw vegetables and fruits I love to eat in the summer time.  I payed attention to using the colors of the rainbow to feed all of my chakras.  Red radishes, apples, tomatoes, raspberries, strawberries & red peppers fed my root chakra. Orange carrots, oranges, butternut squash and pumpkin nourished my second chakra.  Yellow squash, spaghetti squash, pears & lemons opened my power chakra. Green kale, leafy greens, cilantro, parsley, and cucumbers fed my heart.  Blueberries, eggplant, dates, figs, cleared my throat and third eye.  Fresh mineral rich water fed my spirit, my crown chakra.  I connected and prayed knowing that I would continue to be guided to what I needed more of and less of in my life, nutritionally and in my relationships.  I took salt baths to pull out the negative energy I was feeling in my body and had unconsciously collected from others.  I distanced myself from the relationships that fed my darker side and brought back in more of the light filled heart centered people that fill me up.   I went to places that resonate with light vibration and did activities that brought in more light.  I also just 'happened' to have a scheduled appointment with my wholistic osteopathic doctor a week later who also had some wonderful input as to how I could improve my low energy and seasonal affective  disorder type behaviors.  I implemented all of these suggestions along with what I had already been doing and immediately began to feel like my light filled summer self again.  I am incredibly thankful for these experience.  They have taught me well.  They have given me the tools I need to continue to help myself and raise my vibration.  I share all of this with you in hopes that more will see how important it is to take care of our spirit and our bodies that are light filled and vibrant.  The more we can fill our "Light Bodies" with light and high vibrations the better we will feel and the more positive about life we become.  We are Light Bodies needing to be filled in all aspects of our being.  I encourage you to feel all types of energy around you and how these different energies affect your being.  It is when we can tune into this awareness and allow it to teach us that we can make the changes necessary to fill our lightness.  Our spirit will guide and direct us to the high vibrations and frequencies we need.  We only need to be ready to listen.  From the foods we eat, to the environment we live in , to the thoughts we think, to the faith that we hold deep within our hearts....we are always evolving, transcending, moving closer to our oneness.  Charge on my friends and know only good will come.  Feed your Light Body.  Feed it well.  It is your connection to the Oneness you are seeking.  The lightness...the openness...the beingness that resonates from within.

Namaste
Jennifer

Winter Sucks! My Perception about this time of year...

This morning I woke up with a terrible feeling in my body.  It was the feeling I always get this time of year...that feeling of the winter blahs.   This is the time of year where I just want to go south and never return to the cold again.  I have a hard time with winter.  The cold seeps into my bones creating an ever present chill that makes me want to pull the bed covers over my head and go for a hibernating sleep that will not wake me until spring time.  I find it difficult to want to do anything.  The usual chores that I need to get done around the house are even a real pain in the butt because it is cold and snowy outside.  So...I usually do all the things that sends me into a more depressed state...I eat more, I sleep more, and I do less...thus creating an ever present spiral into a downward shift.  It's a beautiful pattern that I have during the winter time.   I always learn more about myself in these days of darkness than ever before.  There is something about living in the darkness for awhile that teaches you more about life than just living in the light.  Yes, it is wonderful to be light filled and I encourage everyone to be filled with light but there are times when it is necessary to feel the darkness so that we can burn that much brighter.  So, what did I do this morning when I awoke into my miserable state of hating winter?   I forced myself to get up...because I had to...I had Mom responsibilities needing attention.   Thank goodness for my kids...or I'd never get up (-;   I forced myself down the stairs to make my tea and sit sipping caffeine trying to wake myself up for 20 minutes before the day began.   Finally, when I felt the wakefulness that I search for on mornings like these I pushed myself to get up and start the day.  After the morning ritual of helping my kids get ready for school I decided that I had to embrace my perceived hatefulness towards winter.  If I didn't begin to change my thoughts about this time of year I would continue to make myself miserable.  So, I decided to embrace it fully...I put on my boots, my long winter jacket that covers me from head to ankles, gloves, and hat and went out into the miserable snow!  I went for a power walk to get rid of my frustrations about winter and to embrace this time of year fully.   I schlepped through the 2inch packed down snow on sidewalks, the slippery slush and ice, and the wind that hit my cheeks every couple of feet.  I plugged my ears with headphones and listened to my favorite tunes.  I breathed deeply and forcefully into the present moment as I stomped my feet and walked determined around the town.  I was on a mission and nothing was going to get in my way.  Nothing did.  I breathed, I walked, I furiously took on the winter blues and blahs and told them to go you know where.  I had it with feeling sorry for myself and found a way to turn my sour apples into apple pie.  And you know what happened?    I actually began to smile to myself half way through my temper tantrum walk.   I began to feel this lightness creep into my body.   I began to enjoy myself.  Then, suddenly, I  felt this undeniable urge to lie down in the blank open field of snow along my path and be a kid again.  I saw a fresh open patch of snow that was just calling for me to make a snow angel.  That is exactly what I did....I laid down on top of the white blanket and made my mark.  As I was doing it I hoped that someone would see me too and that it would bring a smile to their face just as it was bringing a sense of joy to mine.  I laid there and not only enjoyed the feeling of powder under my body but was able to take in a crisp blue sea filled sky above me. I was transformed.  I arose from my snow angel with a new sense of embrace for where I was and what I was feeling.  I emerged from my cocoon with wonder and deep gratitude for this time of year I so often despised.  I even elongated my walk and turned it into a time that I will savor and hope to do again in the next week.  All I can say is...my perceptions changed when I decided to go bravely into my fears and do what I hate most.  And you know what? I'd do it all over again.

Peace to you my friends...and may you charge bravely into your fears with the knowing that something delightful may come from having a temper tantrum every now and then.  

Come on...JUST DO IT...What are you waiting for?

I sit here in my kitchen....writing this blog. Why?  Because I know that there are about a million people out there who have probably walked the very same path I am walking but haven't shared it with anyone.  So, what am I doing every time I get out here in this web world?  I'm shining my light so that you shine yours!  That doesn't mean that only good happens to me, oh no...I have some pretty rough times but its how I perceive the rough edges that makes it good or bad or even that I am able to judge it at all.  You see, we all have these great aspects of ourselves where certain things are a bit easier for us than others.  These things just happen to come naturally.  You know...like being an organized person, or being able to connect with kids, or being able to know how to market something, etc. etc. etc.  You know what you are good at and not so good at.  Me?  I like to write.  But, as you may be able to tell, I have not had a whole lot of training in this aspect in my life.  That doesn't stop me...I just love to do it...so I do it.  I like to sing too...and my kids laugh at me every time I do because they hear how out of tune I am.  The point is, if you like to do something then JUST DO IT.  Don't let anyone tell you that it needs to be done like this or like that or it's not acceptable.  Rather, do it your way and fulfill that burning desire within you that wants to JUST DO IT.  I understand your hesitation...but most of the time no one cares anyway and no one is really watching you...they are too busy worrying about what they are doing to care about your thoughts and reasons why you are not doing what you want to do.  So, instead of worrying about what everyone is thinking just go out and do whatever it is your spirit has been wanting you to do!  I am... Why aren't you?
And one more idea on this topic...most of the time we don't do what we really want to do is because we think of all the reasons why we should be doing something else that is more important first.  Why?  Ego...and we also still have those silly old tapes playing in our heads from when we were kids and everyone always telling us how to do something the 'RIGHT' way.  It's like we have this little guy on our shoulder pointing the finger at us going, "You can't do that right now."   I'll tell you what...lets both go and tell that guy to "Shut up and shov' it!"  "I'm living my life, not yours, little man!"  And when we do this together we both help each other break these patterns that no longer serve us and shine a lot BRIGHTER.  What do you think?  Go ahead and give it a try, what do you have to lose anyway?  JUST DO IT!